You know you’ve been through the ups and downs of infertility when the pregnancy tests in your medicine cabinet are paper, ordered bulk on Amazon.

But those two lines mean the same thing whether or not they’re paper or plastic.

Pregnant.

I want to have more to say. I want more words, more feelings. It’s been a week and a half and still… this is it.

I want to be thrilled! Over the moon. But the moon is much more distant a goal when you’ve been pregnant 3 times in 4 months.

So far this little one has hung on longer than the last 2, so we’re hopeful this is a good sign. But man, pregnancy after loss is no joke.

Thank you for going on this journey with us. Thank you for keeping us in your thoughts and prayers.

As much as I struggle to find the words, I want to continue to be as open as possible about our journey in the hopes that others feel less alone.

Infertility has many faces, many forms.

And this is ours.